I need a job to fix...I'm actually seeing the light at the end of the tunnel and now I've been having mini panic attacks thinking about my future employment. I wasn't liking any of the clinics I had checked out and at the moment, the big health care hospital owned groups don't have positions in OB in the community I want to stay in. Then I found out that the reason why was because the lone male FP/OB feels that his numbers are low because of his Y chromosome and told the clinic manager that he doesn't want them to hire another female FP/OB so they listed it only as non-OB. Since I really do enjoy working for this large group (okay, I love the benefits especially), I tried to convince myself and others that I was fine not doing OB. Apparently I wasn't since when I sat down with my advisor last week thursday, I totally lost it and in my frustration over not finding a good fit for me yet, I cried. I cry when I'm very frustrated. It's who I am but after a good cry I move on and get motivated and get stuff done. Anyway, that day he had called me earlier to tell me about a private practice that would want an FP/OB provider and they actually deliver at our hospital. The lead doctor was actually at my hospital waiting for her patient to deliver naturally and I was on call on saturday so we talked a little that day until I got busy again and then today I checked out the clinic. It's pretty nice and they have an electronic medical record so that makes it even better. Everyone seems pretty nice. So on to the next step of discussing the nitty gritty details of contracts and whatnot. She said that they would have to create a whole new contract for me since I would be the first MD to be hired (she and the 2 other docs are DOs) that also does OB. She was more or less given the clinic so she didn't need to make a contract for herself. Currently there are 4 OB providers - herself and 3 midwives. I've actually met the midwives before when I did my OB month since they were there more frequently than she was. They all share the OB patients so if you're not on OB call, you don't do the delivery. The patients see all of them throughout the course of their pregnancy so they at least meet everyone who could be delivering the baby. Kind of nice actually. So I'm getting excited now but I still hold out hope for the other one. I don't think I'm very good at negotiating adding in job priveleges and one of the other docs who works with that male doc said all the other docs have been trying to convince him to change his mind. And my advisor said he was also going to try to get him to change his mind but I'd hate to be resented by a colleague as the one who made it even more difficult for him to get OB numbers. So frustrating...don't worry, I'm not crying - I got all that out of my system last week.
Well, I'm going to exercise. Only 4 more months until I'm released into the world as a full fledged doctor. time flies by...cliche but so true!
Simple words to live by...
When someone annoys you, it takes 42 muscles to frown, but it only takes 4 muscles to extend your arm and whack them on the head.